I have to be honest with you girls,
Life has been really crazy for me.
I mean, I shouldn’t be surprised, I’ve gone through alot within the past 2 months. Going through some crazy phases in life is good for me because I realize things.
I will tell you guys what happened with my time away.
I have been drinking alot. I know it’s horrible! I finally got it out of my system after one drunken night of vomiting and waking up with red dots on my face and eyes (i popped a lot of blood vessels when I threw up). I’m pretty much done with drinking too much. I went to go see the bartender that day and drank WAYYYY too much. I mean free drinks? Yeah, I did go too far.
I’ve also not been eating which led to me losing a lot of weight fast. When I have been eating, I’ve been eating CRAP.
3 weeks of this led me to many epiphanies. I will seriously get back into eating healthy and working out. I owe it to myself and my body.
Even after all this craziness and life changing experiences, I’ve never been happier.
I think a lot of drinking also had to do with me being so down on myself. I think the weirdest but most needed talk was with Danny Boy (bartender). We had a semi-date but it led to us talking about everything that was going in our lives and I told him how guilty I felt for breaking Richard’s heart and that I feel that I got over it really quickly. To which he responded, you were done two years ago. So you shouldn’t feel bad. Which is right because I stopped really feeling anything about Richard 2 years ago but I stayed with him because I’m a loyal girlfriend. Then I realized yeah, I am happy. My sister even claimed that she’s never seen me soo happy. I mean everyone is sad about me and Richard. My cousin even said how sad everyone is and that my parents are going to be super sad ( I know I haven’t told them yet!). But I mean, am I suppose to be miserable to keep everyone else happy? I realize I just have to make myself happy.
It’s funny when you could’ve had everything, you realize it’s not what you want. I mean Richard was perfect on paper: He came from a really good family, was going to be an engineer, tall, handsome, good guy. I saw my future with him as a middle-class white collar family with 2 little kids in a suburban neighborhood. I realized I don’t want that at all. I know it sounds crazy but I don’t want that life.
In conclusion, I’ve never been happier, I’m over being sad and living my life for others. I’m going to live for me. Which means I’m dropping accounting and when I’m done with my finance degree, I will be attending culinary school whether my parents support me or not.
I hope I didn’t bore you girls.
On to food:

This is the only picture I have. It’s a ribeye steak that cost me a good chunk of money…. that I fed my dogs. Haha. My parents told me I was crazy to spend that much on my dogs but I love them so much!
I know I say I will update more, and I will say it again but this time I mean it!
To those that spend time to read my blog, I thank you.
-Annie